with the insane week of fittings, production meetings, design revisions, sketches, costume design, fabrication meetings, tracking own cow rib cages for casting in metal armor, and preparing my swaggin clients New Boyz for their SCREAM tour launching September 30th... ya... all of this within just this week... real talk... I don't sleep, eat, breathe- I've lost what's left of my mind- but listening to this song, made me feel like it's going to be ok... so I will sit here finishing putting together this outfit for T.S's publicist... and this joint to calm the fuck down... and always remember what my Nish Nish always said:
Nisha:
"Bells, where are your feet?"
Me:
"in front of me"
"in front of me"
Nisha:
"stand up bells- where are your feet RIGHT NOW"
Me:
"on the ground..."
::as I am breathing out::
when it all starts building me up and freaking me out like it has been lately with how much I've taken on... a strong team- Jimi Hendrix, Marlborough Reds, Starbucks Latte's in the day, Clonopin, and Red Wine are the elements of my survival right now...
oh... and don't forget the most important ingrediant... what is keeping me alive besides an unexplainable source from creatures of another nature...
music... just really good fucking music...
xx
*bella*
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