...where.it.takes.you...

the moment I hear this song... Smashing Pumpkins song, 1979 off of that fucking EPIC record, Siamese Dream- my mind immediatly flashes back to:


being in high school... maybe it's fresh man year- and riding around with my best friends Lexy and Sabrina, smoking weed- sneaking drinks- and being the bad little bitches we were...

-we were this music video-
(of course with the minor tweak that we were the snobby, private school- credit card swiping, high school ruling little rich girls version of it)

and I feel high just from thinking of the nostalgia of that time... we were so free- free from the real world of deadlines, jobs, bills, careers, rent, follow your head or your heart... where our actions would result to- the whole idea of responsibility- consequences- it just didn't exist to us, and is still the most jagged little pill that people try to shove down my throat as I throw up and tell society to fuck itself- and let the artist be the artist... and flash my middle finger to the rule reigning dictators of "our society" when I'm screaming to be myself- as they scramble in attempts to try to put their hands over my mouth...

I smile hearing this song... and know that we weren't doing anything wrong, or being "bad"- we were just being ourselves, and were never afraid to let everyone know it..
xo
*bella*